Many times we are so wrapped up with keeping up with the Joneses that we hardly take time to take a breath and realize – we’re truly living for our own happiness and desires.
One day last September I stood determined to change my life by changing my eating habits, learn to incorporate exercise and completely turn my health around into a happier healthier Jean.
Through the help of the Fitgirls guide, I was able to have fun as I gained knowledge, confidence and lost 36lbs. The “challenges” brought out more challenges within myself such as learning not to “compete” against others and simply “Do this” for myself. Once I changed this perspective it allowed me to relax and focus on myself through the journey.
As I have lost those 36lbs I feel much better. I am looking to continue this healthy lifestyle yet I find myself trying to decipher my grief from my reality. I watch my fellow fit friends as they are pressing on and continuing their journey….yet I stand here paused. At the moment I am satisfied with the major healthy difference I have achieved in such a short time. It isn’t my ultimate goal, but I am extremely proud and enjoying my current physic.
My existence is currently allowing my soul to pause at the urgency of “press press press go go go and do do do”.I am allowing myself the time to grieve the loss of my son and simply enjoy how far I have come in my new me fitness journey.
My heart looks forward to the continuing journey and my long term goal, but at this time, I am allowing myself to breathe, be me and stay as closely on track as I possibly can without the hype or pressures to be better.
Taking care of ALL of you is more important than staying with the crowd. If you were an athlete in training and you pulled a muscle, you would naturally nurture and tend to the injury rather than miserably pushing yourself forward into your ultimate goal and risk permanent damage. A wise athlete would also know at what point their body is capable to rise up and continue when ready.
This example reflects our emotional healing. When life consumes you and you have no choice but to face your grief, YOU MUST ALLOW IT TO FLOW. So you can heal. Be wise to recognize when it is time to jump back on track with your goals. Don’t allow excuses to consume your efforts. Press on when “you know you can” and back off when “you know you must”. A balance between physical and emotional well being will lead you into a happier successful healthy goal. A happier healthier you.
I found a quote by Benjamin Allen that reflects grief and true reality: “Loss is the most challenging experience I believe I have ever faced. There isn’t a simple roadmap that navigates the afterloss in one specific way that works for everybody. Each person has to find his or her own rhythm and time.”
I love you! #permissiontobeyourself